JB and the Dolphin

Dolphin #1 or JB and the Dolphin

For the past month I have hardly been doing anything but sitting in my room being depressed, listening to way to sad music and wasting away. The biggest mistake I tend to do is having all these expectations about things and then have them shattered, which generaly leads me to sitting in my room being depressed, listening to way to sad music and wasting away. After spending a week in my room without even leaving to get food (I ate the weirdest combinations of whatever I could find in the kitchen), I finally got my ass up and decided to go back to the most depressing place in all of Turkey: University. I don't want to tell you how bad the University is, because actually it's not bad, it's just different, educating their students for a different future than mine will ever be. They have to draw very neatly in ways that I could never draw and frankly, I'm not interested in drawing like that. The education is fitting for people who want to go on working for a company like, I dunno, something better than H&M, but very similar to that. I want to become an independent designer who is going to be very dependent on their mum. (She knows how the world works, I don't.) I intend to make fashion that people like me want to wear, confused people in their twenties who think they're still a teenager, that is. 

So, naturally, all the teachers hate what I do. But that's probably good. I have to deal with a lot of rejection and criticism. One thing I know for sure is that I'm not going to change who I am to please anybody but myself and I really really like myself, like, a lot, so, I'm not going to change. 

I know that I'm still far from being as good as I can be and that I have a trillion more things to learn before I can become said independent designer, but I also know that I'm not going to learn these things here. But I'm learning other things, like, how to live on my own, how to live in a foreign country without really knowing the language, I'm even learning bank stuff! Most importantly I'm learning alot about myslef and how to stop myself from falling. 

This kitschy post was brought to you by Dalia von Wegen, Mermaidprincess, Queen of nothing and everything, Godess of pancakes. 

PS: The first picture is my Fiber Arts project, the next 4 are some of the illusrations for my Fashion Illustration calss (they are highly unappreciated by my teachers), and the last two pictures are some of the work for my (also highly unappreciated) collection. (Note the sarcasm.)

Drawing Fashion

Before I say anything else, I'll say this: Forgive my rare posting! I'm a busy, and also lazy little girl.I have way too much on my hands with University, though I'm working on nothing and everything at th same time. It's a bit odd.

However, I wanted to tell you about an exhibition everyone probably already knows everything about and has seen, and blah blah. Anyways, Drawing Fashion is (or maybe took) place at Londons Design Museum. As a fashion design student with an high interest in Illustration I had to go there. Actually this exhibition was one of the reasons for me to visit London again. (Fashion Week not so much, what I kinda regret.) If you live in London and haven't seen this exhibion: GO THERE! It's worth your 6 Pounds. It is fascinating how fashion was illustrated over the years, from the 1920ies to now. You have a wide range of different artists, videos that show their working process and very old examples of Vogue (not to touch though).

On another note: I designed a new pair of shoesies today. Heels with a plexiglas platform. It will take me ages to finish them, though my deadline'll be the 12th April because I'm taking part at a competition (yes, another one). I can feel how those heels will cost m all my nerve (and my mums money, but nah), I see how I'll hate myself for choosing to make a plexiglas platform! Why did I design them? Am I crazy? I will not ever wear them. BUT there'll be an exhibition/fashionshow at the end (actually before the end) of term, and they'll be exhibited at the competition, and if I win I'll be rich.

We Are Not Illustrators

Me and my friend over at En Papier launched a new Blog today called We Are Not Illustrators.

We both are Illustrating mostly musicians but also other people and things of importance to us.

Our first Illustration is Devendra Banhart. I hope you like it.